Mother's Day Year 2

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May 13, 2018
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Mother's Day is a hard day. It's a beautiful day to celebrate the woman who brought you in to this life, bur for those moms who have lost it's hard (see previous blog post). This Mother's Day is bittersweet. This year I am pregnant with our second daughter. So exciting!!!

There are so many mixed feelings this time around. Mother's Day is a day for me that is mixed with loss and hope. The loss of my sweet Eleanor Rose, and the hope of seeing precious Ruby Jean. The back and forth in my head with being excited for the future and the sadness of the past.

Last year I spent Mother's Day in the nursery at church. I chose to be with little babies instead of being with the adults. I didn't want the pity from people (even though they all mean so well and love me). I just thought it would be easier for me to hide my sadness by rocking another baby while their parents got a much deserved break to be with other adults. A sleeping or laughing baby is such good medicine for my broken soul.

This year I spent Mother's Day with my family: my husband, brother, and his girlfriend. I decided to go to church and let the people who care so much about me love on me. Standing their and worshiping my Savior was the good medicine for me this year. I love to sing. I love singing and praising Jesus while holding my belly. My favorite memories with Eleanor were singing in church with her in my belly. I am happy that this is something that I get to experience with both of my girls.

I have been trying to figure out how to show my two daughters together. The two of the most precious people in my life in the same space. Thank you God for a creative brother who has a "not so crappy" camera. He did it.