To My Baby Girl

Dear Precious Baby Girl,

You are six months old today. I cannot believe it!! How can you be so big already?? I feel like we were just at the hospital yesterday with you. Holding you in my arms, loving you, kissing you, singing to you. Daddy and mommy miss you so much. We think about you every day. Waiting until we can see you again. I think about the things that we would be doing if we were here. I am sure long nights and lots of diaper changes. I would take the longest nights and the nastiest diapers in the world if it meant I would have one more night with you. I think of all of the milestones that we are going to miss: hearing your laugh, seeing you smile, watching you walk for the first time. Daddy teaching you how to hunt and fish. (He could not wait to do those things with you.). Your daddy loves you so much. He wanted you to play volleyball and softball. Of course I wanted you to do dance or gymnastics. I imagine you wearing a tutu and a softball shirt. Dancing around while dribbling a ball. I am so sad that I do not get to see you grow up.

I wonder every day what you are doing in Heaven. I imagine all of these things. I see you twirling and dancing around and around with Jesus, in a beautiful white dress with dark hair and pink ribbons. Your hair was so dark when you were born. Just like mommies. I also imagine you loving just sitting at Jesus' feet listening to him talk. You loved it when mommy would read the Bible to you. That is when you would move around the most. I miss you moving around in my belly. I am so amazed that you have already seen so much more then I have. You have a perfect body, a perfect mind. You have no worries or cares in the world, baby girl. It's funny to think that you are going to watch me grow up instead of the other way around. I hope I make you proud and happy to be apart of our family.

Just know we love and miss you every single day. Even though I miss you terribly, I know that you are in the best place you can be. You are completely safe, and nothing bad will ever happen to you. Your daddy did a great job of protecting you down here, and now you have the best Protector in the world.

I love you Eleanor Rose,

Love Mommy